Yes it has hasn’t it?!
I have been keeping my head down a bit if I am honest. My health has been crap…my back/hips/pelvis have been causing me some pain over the last few weeks and for a couple of weeks after my last run I had the shin splints from hell! Needless to say I have not run for at least 4 weeks. I have been busy getting my teeth fixed over the last couple of months and although they are not 100% done, they are considerably better and I no longer have to live on a diet of Angel Delight.
This Friday will be the second anniversary of Billie-Jane’s death and I can already feel that pain in my chest getting worse as the days go by. Thursday I am travelling by train to the town where my Dad lives so that I can be with him and Paul on the actual day. We will then visit Billie in the cemetery where her ashes are buried, it’s the same cemetery that my Grand-parents and Auntie Frankie are all buried.
It might be because of the looming anniversary, I don’t know but for the last two weeks I have been considering throwing in the towel. I always feel like I have to fight against something to become a runner and I start to get somewhere but then my various ailments start to play up and I have to stop again. It feels like a struggle almost all the time. When I crossed that finish line with Michelle last month after so many set-backs and problems there was no feeling like it. I even gave up smoking so that I could be a better runner (2nd Oct was the 6 month anniversary) but I am not sure if I should continue. Maybe I just need another goal? I will leave it until after Billie’s anniversay before I make any decisions.
I will try to post later in the week.