I have just returned from the next part of my ‘homework’ from the DLRR Beginners course. Today’s run consisted of 2 mins running then 4 mins walking x 5.
If I am honest, it was quite a struggle and I really had to fight with myself to stay focused. Steve was great again. He watched my time and kept telling me that I can do this. Today for a second there I actually thought to myself ‘Oh my God, I don’t think I am going to be able to do this!’. After the 4th rep of 2 run/4 walk I was actually about to give up. I was in the next street to where we live..just a 1 minute walk to go home…I stood for about 30 seconds, looking back toward the Redway, then back towards my house all the time Steve telling me that I could do this. Why was I doing this?! Why was I putting myself through this?
To get fit? Not really…being fit never really bothered me too much before…I love my couch! To feel better about myself or lose weight? No, I have not been slim for many years and am more than happy with way I am…at almost 40, I am never going to be Twiggy! In actual fact, even in my teens, I never was! 🙂
I am doing this for Hope House. For those wonderful people who took care of our special angel so amazingly. I will admit, a small part of me is doing this for the distraction. I am greiving. I have been for quite a while and for quite a while to come. All these things went through my head in those few seconds while I was standing on the path trying to make the decision to either carry on or go home.
I turned around and headed back to the Redway. Steve asked me what I was doing and my reply?
‘I am not going to let this f****** beat me!’ (apologies for the poor langauge)
So off I ran for another 2 minutes and then slowed down, turned around and walked the last 4 mins home. I did it! OK, I did have a very short break while I was trying to decide whether to continue or go home with my tail between my legs but I still did it…that is what matters to me.
When we got home, I got Steve to take a couple of pictures of me…what a state! 🙂
This was me being really brave because I hate having my picture taken 🙂