Today I planned to up my 18 min run to 20 mins. It was playing on my mind a bit earlier today as I am feeling a little under the weather and I think I may have a cold coming 😦 Anyway, I started ok but started to get tired pretty quickly and at 10 mins through I was having to try really hard. For a minute or so I actually started to wonder if I would make my usual 18.
So I started to think…really hard about all the support I have been getting from my friends, family and Blogging family. I started thinking about all the money I am raising for Hope House & Sport Relief and how much good it will do. Then I started to think about Billie-Jane and how much I miss her and how much it hurts deep in my chest when I think about her. My throat gets all thick and have to get angry with myself to push it away…I think I must have channeled that self anger and pain into my legs because I checked the time and I had been running for 22 mins!! 🙂 In the space of 15 min I have gone from despair to elation and it feels a bit weird.
The only physical complaint I have today is that my toes were tingling a bit so I REALLY need to get some proper running shoes. At the moment I am wearing my trusty old Reebok Classics…I know, I know, not good for serious running but I had to be sure that I was going to stick at this running malarkey before I paid for some proper shoes. So does anyone have any suggestions for decent entry-level running shoes? If you do I would love to hear from you. Also I need an effective way to track my distance…sadly I can’t afford a Garmin and the moment and I don’t have an iPhone…any ideas?
So, mixed feelings while running today but it felt good to run out some pain (if you know what I mean)