I know it’s been a while…

Who remembers this post?  If not, you may want to familiarise yourselves with it…Go ahead, I’ll wait ;)

I remember how devastated I felt at the time I wrote it.  How horrible it felt that someone who I had devoted more than twenty years to and loved so much could treat me so badly.

I think of Miss B often and feel a profound sadness.  I miss her very much.  I have even occasionally sent a sneaky Facebook message to her boyfriend just to check she is OK.

You may be wondering why I am posting after such a long time and why I am mentioning Miss B and a post that I wrote almost three years ago…

Well about an hour ago I received a friend request from her on Facebook.  My instinct was to accept it immediately… like I said, I have missed her so much and I never wanted to stop being her friend in the first place. We went through so much together, but something made me stop.  I just couldn’t click accept.

She dumped me in a very public and extremely unfair way and I know it’s not very grown up of me but I am not sure I can forgive and forget. I actually found myself reading the old post just to remind myself how horrible she made me feel.

I think the point of this post is to update you all as I had some really lovely messages as a result of the original post and this is kind of an update on that but also as I really don’t know what to do.

At this point I think it might be wise to sleep on it.

I hope you are all well.

Jules